HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

It's my birthday yay! I'm 18 now! WOO. I don't feel that much different.

Anyways short post because I got other things to do. :( Saddening right? On my birthday!
Continuing my rant from yesterday, I think I finally got it. It doesn't matter to me anymore. True colors just spewed out from within and I witnessed it. People surprise me. People actually listen to me :)

*sigh* I'm craving some Korean BBQ right now. :( I want some. Read more

Friends?

"The only friend I need is myself"

So 9/11 means my birthday is tomorrow right? Right. So today I'm supposed to be having a little "get together" with my friends and I invited 13 of who I THOUGHT were my closest friends. Close? Not so much anymore. Only about most of them bailed out and now there are 4-5 left going. God this is stupid. I feel like I planned this forever. I made sure and asked them that today they would be free. All of them said yes. Which is why I planned it today. Epic retardation.

Especially if you make a promise. I EXPECT YOU TO KEEP THEM. I mean that's the rule right? If I ever make a promise, I will try my ultimate best to keep it. Otherwise you just made yourself another empty promise and you have no more credibility whatsoever. Also, if you break a promise you also lose my respect in the books.

Great Jesus. I know this rant just going on and on. But seriously I really thought I had solid friends. And I know it sounds like I'm blaming them for everything, but I think I should take part blame because I actually believed them.

Whatever. I'm over it. Lesson learned. Pick better friends in the future and not those who use you for random crap. KTHXBYE. Read more

My Wishlist

"Sometimes a dream is what makes us a slave"

So my birthday is coming up... THE COMING OF AGE. Adulthood. Does it scare me? No. Does it mean I'll finally stand up to that beast of a monster that I call mom? Maybe. Even greater news is that the perfect child will come here for Christmas. Oh joy. I have prepared my invisible coat, in case I ever need to hide of shame.

And my quote from above describes me completely. All throughout high school I was led to believe that my dream was one thing (be come the greatest doctor/humanitarian/awesomestpersonever) and I tried my hardiest by working my ass off in everything I did. I guess you can say I was "slaving" over what my mother wanted. (or what I believe she wanted anyways) Even now, when I have given up that dream for another dream. (don't worry, this one is my very own dream) I have to walk on eggshells not to upset my family. Am I dying inside? Yes. It's annoying to have my mom think I don't have any goals or aspirations. So she is pushing me to become a pharmacist. Sorry to burst your bubble mom, again, THAT IS YOUR DREAM. She always spys on me and tells me "not to play." Um. Hello. I'm almost 18, I don't even see my friends that often (that is also an issue), and I haven't been outside except for classes. What does she want me to be? A duplicate of you-know-who? I told my mom once I wanted to be an art major, and I'm sure she died inside. So now I'm working mechanistically to fulfill my "secret" dream that no one knows about. I'm taking a chance now. Let's hope it works out for the best.

AND ON A BRIGHTER NOTE... here are the things I want in the near future. I guess in a sense, this is a "wishlist for myself" (quite sad really)

URBAN DECAY NAKED PALETTE !
I totally adore the colors and eyeliner, but I'll probably end up using like half of them. OH WELL. A girl can dream can't she?


ANYTHING MAC RELATED.
Preferably the blushes. I love light, nude pink/peachy blushes. Just gives you a light glow without overdoing it. Ya know?


LAURA MERCIER TINTED MOISTURIZER IN NUDE
I tested it out, it's pretty light and gives a nice coverage. It could work well on my face. I guess I'll ask sephora for a sample. Too bad it's so expensive ($42!)



iPHONE 4
Nuff said. So smexy.


FOREVER 21 STUD&PEARL EARINGS
I've wanted these since forever. But just too lazy to get em.


PILOT G-2 05 LEAD PENCILS
My favorite lead pencils in life. You can never have enough of these. Read more

THE UPDATE

"If you can't laugh at yourself, life's gonna seem a whole lot longer than you like."

Well, well, well... I haven't updated this blog in FOREVER. I guess I felt like "I'd do it later." Yeah procrastinator me. Anyways I feel like this blog will be like a diary... I can look back at it in the future and just laugh? Yeah I DON'T KNOW. DON'T JUDGE ME.


HERE WE GO MY LIFE IN THE PAST 3 MONTHS:

PROM 2010
Well, it really was the BOMB. Despite the setbacks and my pessimism, I say it was quite refreshing. I thought I'd be the awkward one because I wasn't part of the "wolfpack." (Yes, I call them that because they always travel in packs...like wolves!) But in turn, they all made me feel welcome. My date was... well he was my date. Just kidding, he really is too noble, to a point where I almost hate him for it. But in my mind, I think he wanted to go with someone else? (Again, me being a pessimist.) I don't really want to go through the 5 signs of awkwardness... Oh and afterwards we ate at BCD. LOL. Yes, food is all I ever think about. So here is a picture of what I ate for dinner at this fancy restraunt place:

GRADUATION / GRAD NIGHT
Well.. not much to be said? It is what it is. Grad Night was pretty bomb. When I got home from it, I was so sparkly, I put Edward Cullen to shame.

CANADA 2010
Unforgettable, FUN! It was cold when we got there, which was weird considering it was summer. Okay I admit, I was a BIT disappointed not seeing a person. But I guess it wasn't our time. It has been 10 years... doubt he even remembers me. *cough* JACKIE I know you're laughing inside. Anyways did you know that Canadians have microwaves in the food courts in case you are too cheap to buy the food there? HAHA FTW. here is some proof:
And they are so eco-friendly, they make you buy EVERYTHING. 25 cents for a plastic bag.. and A DOLLAR TO USE A SHOPPING CART REALLY? OOH and guess what I got? CURRY AND WASABI FLAVORED ICE CREAM. From the 200+ favors gelato place. FTW

Then I rode a ferry for the first time ever. And I went to Victoria's Secret Garden.. (It's not really called that, it's actually called Butchart Gardens..It's just more fun to say it how I say it) ANYWAYS. Lot's of pretty flowers like this one:


Summer 2010 has been okay I guess. Did not really do anything memorable, which is a waste. Hung out with a couple people / ate lots.


COLLEGE
Since I'm only taking 4/5 classes and each experience is different, so I'll break it down in those classes.

SOC 15: My first monday night class... LOLOL oh man. All girls, and like 6 and a half guys. I do not know anybody in that class..except oh wait for it... my ex best friend from elementary school! Why are we ex best friends you ask? Because I did something stupid and childish by help promote some hate club about her 6 years ago. And now karma has come back to bite me in the ass, but putting us in a sociology class ABOUT KIDS. I wonder what traumatic experience SHE will talk about. *sigh*

MATH 3A: First day, I did not know a soul. But I guess it doesn't matter because I know the material anyways. But second day was better because my friend petitioned into the class and I became more comfortable. Math will not be bad at all...because apparently I know way more than anybody else and I'm starting to meet new people. YAY.

WR 201: I know one person in that class. YAY improvement. Not much to say about that class yet, except I don't really think it'll be all that bad.

WR 280: I know the person who works at the front desk... Pretty chill office hours type of class. Will use that time to do my online music. LULZ

MUS 1: It's online ... not much to say except MUST NOT PROCRASTINATE.

Now that I think about it, I see a lot of familiar faces that are from my old high school.. and REALLY old faces from my elementary school friends... Is it creepy that I recognize them, but they don't recognize me? Who knows.



Last thoughts: YUP. that pretty much sums up everything from the past 3 months. I need a job :( No "deep thought" of the day. Too lazy to think really. I NEED TO START DOING HWK. GAH. Read more

AP STUDY TIME!

You see love at first is summer time
That's when you think that every thing's fine
No one ever thinks its gonna end
- Shayne Ward's song "Melt the Snow"

That song is so good. I've been playing it on repeat ever since I've been studying (:

Anyways so excuse my lack of updates for the next 2 weeks please as I will be busy studying my ass off. Or I'll stick a post in or two as a "study break" And now in addition to my test taking, there is another factor of the AP tests that really makes me nervous. :/ In fact, I don't know why I even am nervous for this. But :/ I guess the situation still makes me pretty anxious and jittery. *sigh*
SO MANY BOOKS HUH!? Let's play a game.. GUESS HOW MUCH THAT ALL COSTS -__- Read more