G.NA - '꺼져 줄게 잘 살아(Feat. 용준형)

I've been listening to this KPOP song lately. It's pretty good. I quite like her voice.

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LOL worthy picture

Here's a LOL worthy picture I found and I wanna share with you all.


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Product Review 12.23.10 (Game Version)

Played these games for a good couple of weeks. (BUT I STILL STUCK AT IT!)
Here is what I'm Reviewing:

1. LittleBigPlanet (PS3)
2. Call of Duty: Black Ops (PS3)
3. Nintendo DSi
4. Pokemon: HeartGold (DS)


1. LittleBigPlanet (Ps3)

Cost: $30

Review: Best PS3 GAME EVER. At first I was hesitant to buy the game because it looked kind of lame to play. Then when I actually started playing I was totally addicted! Your character is totally customizable, and as you go on you start collecting all these prize bubbles! (Which include, more clothes, stamps, and material of your sockpuppet!) Then you can play with other people and totally watch them fail at some of the levels. (HILARIOUS to watch) And sometimes they help you too, so it all works out. Because of the user based levels, this game basically has over A MILLION LEVELS. On the other side, sometime's I'd be so mad and frustrated because sometimes I would die because of the PHYSICS of the game. Not because of my own doing. But other than that I cannot stress how much fun this game has been for me.

Grade: A+ (Get this game if you haven't already gotten it for the PS3, I love it so much I'm getting LBP2 that is coming out in January!)


2. Call of Duty: Black Ops (PS3)

Cost: $60

Review: ERM. First off, I have NO experience for FPS games. Like at all. So I played campaign mode and it was quite interesting. The story was good (not gunna spoil). Not gunna lie, I just really liked playing in the Vietnam parts. (CUZ I'M VIET DUH) But yeah, campaign mode was frustrating at parts too because it was just like REALLY I HAVE TO DO THAT? What is the point in that really? But it's a game and you can't really argue with that. As for multiplayer... no comment. People are really mean on multiplayer sometimes? HAHA. Yeah. Thanks to this game, I know most of the names of the guns. (YAY ME) Oh one more thing. Zombie mode is super fun. Try it out with your friends!
Grade: B (Only because after a while the game became a little boring to me. SORRY. It's the same everytime. Nothing new really. Shoot. Kill. Get COD points. Done)

3. Nintendo DSi


Cost: $127 (Target was having a sale)

Review: So far so good! I like the new interface of it. VERY CUTE. At first when I felt the matteness of the DSi I was a bit worried. I carry this thing around my purse and it has yet to have any scratches! I like legitly DROPPED my DSi in the rain FACE DOWN. I was about to cry. But when I picked it back up there were NO SCRATCHES AT ALL. It was only wet. Which I have to give Nintendo mad props for that. The camera is eh. But I like the option of having one even though I never really use it much. I have yet to unleash it's full potential when/if I get an R4i, So I'll keep ya'll updated if/when I get that.

Grade: A (Worth it)


4. Pokemon: HeartGold (DS)


Cost: $40

Review: This game reminds me of childhood when I had my GOLD VERSION on the Game Boy Color. Honestly, I only got the DSi because I was watching the whole first season of Pokemon and it made me really want to play again. And I'm glad I did. This game is a whole new modernized version of Pokemon. The graphics are getting top notch, with the 3Desque of the whole game. The hills, the cities, and the trees are all revamped. Other than that, it's a Pokemon Game, nothing else much to say about that! (PS. MY POKEMON TEAM IS BEAST RIGHT NOW!) I cannot wait until Pokemon Black/White comes out to the US. (With even more intense 3Dness!)

Grade: A+ (LOVE)


Agree? Disagree? Comments? Let me know below!


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I JUST HAD SEX?

Nahhh. But I've been listening to the song ever since it came out.
It's freaking hilarious and catchy. Lonely Island you've done it again! Can't wait until the album comes out in 2011.

The Lonely Island - I Just Had Sex (Feat. Akon).mp3

Found at: FilesTube

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Product Review 12.22.10 (Beauty Version)

This review is stuff I bought in the past month or more. So I've tested it it out for at least a good week.
Here is what I'm Reviewing:

1. NYC's In a New york Minute Nail Polish in 246 Park Ave
2. Physician's Formula Tinted Moisturizer Healthy Wear in Light to Natural 7068
3. Revlon ColorStay Liquid Eyeliner in Blackest Black
4. Revlon ColorStay Eyeshadow Quad in In the Buff
5. Queen Helene Mint Julep Masque
6. St. Ive's Apricot Scrub
7. Harmon Face Values Deep Cleansing Nose Strips
8. Philosophy's Purity Cleanser


1. NYC's In a New york Minute Nail Polish in 246 Park Ave


Cost: $1.77 (but I had a coupon for 1 dollar off so it was basically a dollar!)

Review: I needed two coats to get the color on the bottle, but I guess that is normal on some nail polishes. What really attracted me to this product was the color of it. It was like a greyish with a purplish tone to it. But I guess I was really blind at Target because when I got back home I realized it was a purplish greyish tone instead! (Not like it matters much) One coat is probably too sheer for you, but two coats and a top coat will do the trick. The brush is like any normal brush. I've been wearing it for a couple days now, I have yet to see any chipping of the color.. which is pretty good!

In a Nutshell: For the price, color payoff, and minimal chipping. I'd say go for it! It's a great nail polish for any collection.


2. Physician's Formula Tinted Moisturizer Healthy Wear in Light to Natural 7068


Cost: $15 (but I think it's on sale right now for like 12 dollars?)

Review: For a tinted moisturizer, I think it's has a LOT of coverage. I have pretty pale skin, but when I buy pale foundation it usually turns out TOO light for me. So this time I bought a shade darker than me and this one was in Light to Natural was a BIT to dark for me. But it's okay! What I usually do is mix a little bit of this with my moisturizer and it gives me coverage, while protects me from the sun (or lack of right now). It claims to "protect, prevent, and restores." I can see the protect part. But I have yet to wear this long enough to see any of the other two claims.

In a Nutshell: I think it is a great investment for most the people like me who can't afford like a 40 dollar bottle of Laura Mercier's Tinted Moisterizer


3. Revlon ColorStay Liquid Eyeliner in Blackest Black


Cost: $7

Review: When I'd be too lazy to take out my MAC's Fluidline Blacktrack I'd use this as a substitute. It had easy application and the brush was okay (a bit too stiff for my liking). The color came out like dark watery black. (Is that normal? I do not know.) I've read many ravings on this thing, but honestly I think I'd only use it for emergencies. IT IS NOT WATERPROOF. Trust me I know. I tested it on my hand and then with one swipe of my finger it was already smudged. I guess now I will stop being lazy and use my Fluidline with the brush every morning. XD

In a Nutshell: Sorry would NOT repurchase, unless it was an utter emergency. Not as awesome as I'd hoped.


4. Revlon ColorStay Eyeshadow Quad in In the Buff


Cost: $6

Review: Biggest regret ever. I think I bought this on a hunch because I needed some good neutral everyday colors for school you know? But when I got home, swatched it and tried using it, IT WAS A HORROR. There was so much fall out, chalky, and absolutely NO COLOR PAYOFF. And I have pretty pale skin and if you can't see the color on my skin I don't know where else you'd see it. I even tried using it with a base but no use.

In a Nutshell: NO. NO. NO. Don't even think about it.


5. Queen Helene Mint Julep Masque


Cost: $4

Review: This is a definite cult favorite. And I have to say I completely agree. I've been trying to find this forever, and when I FINALLY found this I was totally psyched. And I was not disappointed. I love putting on the green masque (which smells nice btw!) and scaring people! No just kidding, but you put it on and wait for about 10-15 minutes until the masque dries and you can feel your face harden. Then wash it off for a refreshing sense of EVERYTHING IS CLEAN! I do this about every week kinda like my "relaxing" time and pretend like I'm in a spa or something.

In a Nutshell: Definitely buy it! Cheap and works! What more could you ask for?

6. St. Ive's Apricot Scrub


Cost: $2 (sometimes a dollar if you're lucky!)

Review: We as humans shed about 1.5 million skill cells per hour. So imagine how much that builds up over a week! So I use this scrub as an exfoliater and as an acne treatment sorta thing. It has no parabens which is a plus! I keep this in my shower for showers in the morning. Use it about twice a week (spread out). After I get out of the shower, not only am I awake, you can ACTUALLY feel your skin feel clean. Only con I have to say is that this scrub is pretty strong and if you have dry skin use it about once a week? Because it will make your skin dry. I have oily skin so this isn't really a problem for me. OH! It also smells VERY nice. Like citrusy.. just like the name!

In a Nutshell: Get it! You will love it.


7. Harmon Face Values Deep Cleansing Nose Strips


Cost: $5

Review: If you do this right I guess it works? For me I feel like it did the job for the most part, but I kinda felt like my nose was still dirty? I did see the dirt it picked up after I pulled it off, but not as much as I would have liked. *shrugs*
In a Nutshell: I think I'd pay the extra 3 dollars to try the Biore Strips.


8. Philosophy's Purity Cleanser


Cost: $20 for an 8 fl oz.

Review: At first I tried out the 3 fl oz purity cleanser. And I absolutely fell in love with it. The small 3 fl oz lasted me a WHILE like about 2-3 months! Initially I didn't like the smell, but now that I've gotten used to it, it smells quite nice! Like a lemony smell? Sometimes when I'm too lazy to remove my eye makeup this does the trick! It cleans absolutely EVERYTHING! No joke. It's good for all skin types and as an everyday cleanser.

In a Nutshell: Try it first, if you don't like it then, don't buy it. But for me, this will be my new cleanser.



Agree? Disagree? Comments? Let me know below!




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Dinner For Schmucks Review

Dinner for Schmucks? MORE LIKE DINNER FOR EPIC FAIL.

I was really looking forward to watching this movie because the trailer looked good. But as most films are... TRAILERS ARE VERY DECEIVING. I love Paul Rudd and Steve Carell, but my god this movie was SO HARD TO WATCH.

I did not laugh at all. More like I was cringing throughout the movie and hoping that I would at least get a chuckle out of it. Nope. Not once. Carell's character was so annoying that I wanted to throw a shoe/sock/phone at my TV screen. The whole concept was okay I guess, but the outcome was pure cheese. CHEESY CHEESEBALLS.


FINAL GRADE: C-
(Only because of Paul Rudd)

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STOP ASKING ME THAT STUPID QUESTION!

Seriously people? SERIOUSLY PEOPLE?
Stop asking me "HOW MY LIFE IS GOING?" Because
A) It's really annoying
B) I can only say, "Oh nothing is going on really. HBU?" For SO FREAKING LONG.

YOU WANNA KNOW HOW MY LIFE IS GOING? HERE:


I SLEEP


I PLAY


I READ

I EAT


Are you happy? Did you really want me to say that?
Honestly, I hate being online on AIM because people always IM because they are bored. Not because they want to talk to me or anything. Talk to me because I'm important to you, not because I will keep you entertained. I'm invisible because I want people to go to that buddy list over there and type in my SN even if it takes THAT MUCH TIME AND EFFORT. That just means something to me.

Also. Don't talk to me every 1 week, 2 weeks, or a month. Because that just annoys the hell out of me.

CUPCAKE THEORY: You eat a cupcake (or a couple if you're like me) and then you're over that cupcake. Then a month passes and one day you see someone else eat that cupcake, then YOU'RE CRAVING it again. THEN you buy another cupcake and the cycle goes on.

I don't want to be someone's damn cupcake.


PS: I won't really call you people out on anything. Because I'm not like that. Just so you know these are my thoughts. (I'm trying to be something called a better person now)

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HEHEHE.

MMM forgot to post this week, because I had an essay due on Tuesday, then math exam Thursday. Then burnout days all weekend. (teehee)
BUT. This week's show were SURPRISNGLY GOOD.

90210:
OSCAR AND NAOMI. NUFF SAID. I FORGET WHAT ELSE HAPPENED. OH YEAH "THE UNDIES" Man I wish I had that. I'd totally get an award for "being such a lazyass"

Gossip Girl:
CHUCK AND BLAIR HAVE ANGRY SEX.
LOVE. LOVE LOVE.
EVIL GUY IS COUSIN OF COUGAR JULIET.




Hellcats:
YES finally this show is picking up pace again. Had an 80s theme. LOVED IT. Marti and Dan :( Poor Lewis and Savannah. and ALICE IS BAMF (I'm starting to like her more and more... she's like Blair from GG)

Modern Family:
LOVELOVELOVE! Lily is in a "racist" commercial. Lulz. Jay and Mannie have some cute moment. WATCH IT NAO.


South Park:
KENNY IS MYSTERION. DUNDUNDUNN

30 Rock:
Jack tries to find a replacement for Lemon. (PHAIL) Tracy tries to be a "better person" LOL moment when Liz kills Jack's baby names.

The Big Bang Theory:
SHELDON APOLOGIZES AND GIVES HIS SEAT TO HOWARD. HEART MOMENT. and FINALLY Penny is back. (but little airtime..whats up with that?) Episodes with Penny are the best. Definitely Watch this one.

Fringe:
LSDKFDSF:S YES IT'S BACK FINALLY. This episode is the REAL Olivia and how Peter has gotten into her head. SDKFJS I CANT WAIT UNTIL THE NEXT EP! I'm sure she knows she's being tricked in that world.

Grey's Anatomy:
Pretty good episode actually. LESS SEX. and The lesbians break up :( saddening moment. Karev and that crazy girl are bound to hook up. Quite funny at some parts. Watch it.



NOMNOMNOM Enough of me talking. I SHOULD watch the Amazing race now, but I know KevJumba got eliminated :( THE PAINN.

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HAPPY HALLOWEEN

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Be Jealous of my FOOD.

I am now nomnoming my Kitkats, Reeses, Twix, and M&Ms
nomnom my fav!




And here's a song that's been on replay on my iTunes. LOLS I heard it from the Michelle Phan's Princess video. Tutorial sucked. But the music was good so here:

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MUSIC & MOVIES

I just watched EDWARD SCISSORHANDS.
Words cannot describe how much I love this movie now. It had beautiful cinematography and a compelling story. I almsot cried. This movie made me want to hug Johnny Depp.
Seriously if you haven't watched this movie yet, check it out. Also, Danny Elfman (who does the music for this movie) has impeccable timing. Music fits in so nicely.
Watch the trailer.




JAY PARK ZOMG!
This dude's music rocks. My iTunes has been playing this guy's music for a week now nonstop.


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Reviews DUNDUNDUN

Got Lazy this week... so here are the shows I watched this week...

Glee:
No Puck again? Darn. Rocky Horror show was OKAY. Why does it seem like Glee has no story line? It's just music after music after music. Bring back Charice and Puck!
"GIMME SOME CHOCOLATE OR I WILL CUT YOU"




Hellcats:
MEH. I don't remember what happened in this episode. (that's how boring it was) I totally called Marti and her lawyer friend. uhhhhh yeah snorefest. skip this episode. if you can

Modern Family:
Modern Family always makes me lulz. Claire's obsession with halloween, and Gloria's accent made the episode amazing. "Baby jesus" made me DIE.


Southpark:
Ummmmmmmmmm no comment. Only funny parts were the parodies of the "BP OIL SPILL" and that's about it.

WATCH THE SOUTHPARK EPISODE HERE

Big Bang Theory:
MMMMMM it was a "less than average episode" probably because PENNY WASN'T THERE AGAIN. CHEESUS BRING BACK PENNY! NO CLUE WHERE THE HECK SHE WENT. 2 STRAIGHT EPISODES WITHOUT PENNY WTF?!?! So if you like Big Bang Theory, watch it ..... quite disappointed with this episode really.

Grey's Anatomy:
Surprisingly, I liked this episode. It was like a "mockumentary" of like a reality show. Some parts were funny. Heck. MANDY MOORE WAS IN THIS EPISODE. What isn't there to like? Watch it.


Community:
I thought 30 Rock was on this week... but I was wrong and so I watched this episode instead.
It was like a "zombie" episode where everyone had to survive. First time watching a full episode of this, and it was quite entertaining. But sadly, I think I watch too many shows already, so I don't have the room to squeeze this one in. It was a nice Halloween episode though.

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QUICK REVIEWS

AMAZING RACE: EPISODE 5
Kevjumba ftw! Or Mallory, Or the Doctors.
LOL @ Dating couples. The guys sure do have short tempers and huge egos.

WATCH AMAZING RACE HERE

DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES:
still boring. I just watch it to pass time. NUFF SAID.



GOSSIP GIRL: "Easy J"
Despite the low ratings it's been getting, I think the plot is getting a LITTLE better. Chuck and Blair should make up already. And the ending of tonight's episode was like. WHAT GIRL SAY WHAT? So yeah.




90210: "How much is that Liam in the Window"
Liam is hot in this episode. His girlfriend is hilarious. Oscar baaaad. Cute Naomi and Jen makeup. Adrianna in troubleee. Summed it all up for you guys.


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No Review Today...

Nothing to watch today except old episodes of The Big Bang Theory... so I did a little painting:
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Jersey Shore, Grey's Anatomy, Playful Kiss Review

JERSEY SHORE SEASON 2 FINALE:
Oh my god. I can't believe I wasted 40 minutes of my life watching this crap. Now I regret jumping with joy at the departure of Angelina. This finale was so boring! Blah blah Sammi is a b**ch. The "big" fight wasn't even that big. And it was over something so friggin stupid I just have to facepalm my face back to reality. Season 2 you are a let down, but the quotes will never end. "You dirty little hamster" See you next year. I will miss your kooka Snooki.

Jersey Shore - MTV Shows

GREY'S ANATOMY: "Almost Grown"
Finally a Grey's episode where there is no sex. So it was a pretty decent one. I love the person who picks out the music for this show. Anyways, I think I'm a bad person. One of the patients in this episode had "manboobs" and I kinda loled. All the residents are attendees this episode. So yeah. Overall pretty interesting, unlike some of the other episodes where I either skipped or just zoned out. Watched this episode in it's entirety.




Playful Kiss FINALE (EP 16)
I'm kinda sad this kdrama has come to an end. But then again around episodes 9-10 I got really frustrated with Oh Ha Ni's stalkerish tendencies. The finale was really lighthearted and pulled all the characters together for one big happy ending. Everybody is happy with someone. (Haera and Old dude, Elvis guy with Christina) BSJ finally showed Hani all this affection. (Probably more than all the episodes combined) Then the different scenes of how they "kissed" was pretty good too. Drama overall rating in my opinion? Probably a 8/10. Kept me busy for quite awhile. Might rewatch it in the future.

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The Big Bang Theory & 30 Rock Review

Just watched tonight's episode of the Big Bang Theory and 30 Rock. So fresh from my memory here is my review:

THE BIG BANG THEORY: "The Desperation Emanation"
I freaking LOVE The Big Bang Theory. But this episode was more central to Leonard's lack of girlfriend /Sheldon's not wanting to meet Amy's Mother. Where was Penny in this episode? HAHA Sheldon "BAZINGA!" "I am making love to your daughter's VAGINA" So basically, the only funny parts are with Sheldon in it. (yes I am a HUGE Sheldon fan) It was an overall good episode, not as GREAT as the others. But still good.




30 ROCK: "Reaganing"
I'm pretty sure this episode doesn't match up to last week's LIVE episode. But it was still pretty good. Liz Lemon and her "sex rollerblade story" killed me. And omg when Kenneth, Jenna, and Kelsey Grammer pulled the scam with the ice cream cake store, that screamed "THE STING" in it. I love it when I get cultural/other movie references. It really shows that I have a life. LOL. No Carol (Matt Damon) in this episode though :(
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Playful Kiss EP15 Review

So I just finished watching Playful Kiss Episode 15!
It was nice seeing everybody from previous episodes again (the teachers!). But I feel like over the episodes PK has lost it's spark. I love Bong Joon Gu and Hae Ra. Only because they intially fell in love with the wrong person :( I always feel sad for that type of character because you can't really help who you fall in love huh? I'm happy that Oh Ha Ni isn't a stalker in this episode. I get super annoyed when she goes super stalkermode in every episode. It just degrades her character and makes her seem pathetic and desperate. Everything seems rushed from episode 10 and on, but then again this kdrama is trying to fit a whole manga in 16 episodes so I guess they are doing a good job.

For 2010, I still believe My Girlfriend is a Gumiho is a better drama thank Playful Kiss.. sorry it was cuter, better plot, and frankly better acting. Kim Joong Hyun has such a stiff face when playing his character. His mouth says the words, but his eyes tell no story. I still love him as a singer though.


EPISODE 15: (watch it if you want)











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Something fresh, Something New!

So in addition to my ramblings on this blog, I've decided to also do Music/Youtube/TV Show/ Movie / Make-up Reviews! Huzzah! So here goes my first post as.. whatever! Spoiler Alert maybe needed. So be warned..

TV SHOWS:
Last night I only watched Modern Family & Southpark so here are my two cents:

MODERN FAMILY: "Unplugged"

Nothing special in my opinion, just a regular lighthearted modern family episode. I could actually relate to this one because the Dunphy family was doing this contest of how long they could outlast each other on technology. (ME = DYING WITHOUT FACEBOOK) Cam and Mitch try to find Lily a nice preschool by using their "gays with asian baby" hilarious. LOVE LOVE LOVE modern family.


SOUTHPARK: "Insheeption"

Oh my cheesus. Of course no Southpark would be complete without a reference to SOMETHING. In this episode, they pretty much parodied INCEPTION with some FREDDY KRUGAR. MMKAYY? As always, it was funny at some parts and just "no." at others. But I think I seriously died at the part where the guy provides the "background" music for the dream stories. Man I wish that actually happened in real life.
WATCH THE FULL EPISODE OF SOUTHPARK "INSHEEPTION" HERE


MUSIC:
In music news, Taylor Swift's Song "Mean" is quite catchy. It shows a more of a "country" side of her where I haven't really heard yet. Check it out if you're into that kind of stuff.




So I guess that's it for today. See ya'll for tomorrow on my review on the BIG BANG THEORY, 30 ROCK, PLAYFUL KISS, JERSEY SHORE, and any music.



In life news:
Today I knew I had made the RIGHT decision on quitting Facebook. I walked into my writing lab and I saw this guy that looked familiar. Then I realized, oh gosh I "friended" him a couple years ago, but never saw him in person or even talked to him on Facebook. And so I sat down in awkwardness. Because I "knew" him from my creeping/statuses/pictures. Read more

I QUIT FACEBOOK YEAH!

Haven't posted in a while. AGAIN. But frankly, nothing has been going on. So woopdedoo. I haven't been with friends in like a month. I'm actually used to it now.
THINGS I LIKE:
* My Girlfriend is a Gumiho
* Playful Kiss

* The Big Bang Theory

* Fringe

* Amazing Race

* 30 Rock

Yes I have replaced my friends with TV shows. Quite sad. OH and I have quite FACEBOOK. Why? Because I need to stop creeping on people who have lives, while I have none. It seems like I'm sulking... well I'm not. I am quite content right now. Just feed me and I'll be happy forever.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

It's my birthday yay! I'm 18 now! WOO. I don't feel that much different.

Anyways short post because I got other things to do. :( Saddening right? On my birthday!
Continuing my rant from yesterday, I think I finally got it. It doesn't matter to me anymore. True colors just spewed out from within and I witnessed it. People surprise me. People actually listen to me :)

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Friends?

"The only friend I need is myself"

So 9/11 means my birthday is tomorrow right? Right. So today I'm supposed to be having a little "get together" with my friends and I invited 13 of who I THOUGHT were my closest friends. Close? Not so much anymore. Only about most of them bailed out and now there are 4-5 left going. God this is stupid. I feel like I planned this forever. I made sure and asked them that today they would be free. All of them said yes. Which is why I planned it today. Epic retardation.

Especially if you make a promise. I EXPECT YOU TO KEEP THEM. I mean that's the rule right? If I ever make a promise, I will try my ultimate best to keep it. Otherwise you just made yourself another empty promise and you have no more credibility whatsoever. Also, if you break a promise you also lose my respect in the books.

Great Jesus. I know this rant just going on and on. But seriously I really thought I had solid friends. And I know it sounds like I'm blaming them for everything, but I think I should take part blame because I actually believed them.

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My Wishlist

"Sometimes a dream is what makes us a slave"

So my birthday is coming up... THE COMING OF AGE. Adulthood. Does it scare me? No. Does it mean I'll finally stand up to that beast of a monster that I call mom? Maybe. Even greater news is that the perfect child will come here for Christmas. Oh joy. I have prepared my invisible coat, in case I ever need to hide of shame.

And my quote from above describes me completely. All throughout high school I was led to believe that my dream was one thing (be come the greatest doctor/humanitarian/awesomestpersonever) and I tried my hardiest by working my ass off in everything I did. I guess you can say I was "slaving" over what my mother wanted. (or what I believe she wanted anyways) Even now, when I have given up that dream for another dream. (don't worry, this one is my very own dream) I have to walk on eggshells not to upset my family. Am I dying inside? Yes. It's annoying to have my mom think I don't have any goals or aspirations. So she is pushing me to become a pharmacist. Sorry to burst your bubble mom, again, THAT IS YOUR DREAM. She always spys on me and tells me "not to play." Um. Hello. I'm almost 18, I don't even see my friends that often (that is also an issue), and I haven't been outside except for classes. What does she want me to be? A duplicate of you-know-who? I told my mom once I wanted to be an art major, and I'm sure she died inside. So now I'm working mechanistically to fulfill my "secret" dream that no one knows about. I'm taking a chance now. Let's hope it works out for the best.

AND ON A BRIGHTER NOTE... here are the things I want in the near future. I guess in a sense, this is a "wishlist for myself" (quite sad really)

URBAN DECAY NAKED PALETTE !
I totally adore the colors and eyeliner, but I'll probably end up using like half of them. OH WELL. A girl can dream can't she?


ANYTHING MAC RELATED.
Preferably the blushes. I love light, nude pink/peachy blushes. Just gives you a light glow without overdoing it. Ya know?


LAURA MERCIER TINTED MOISTURIZER IN NUDE
I tested it out, it's pretty light and gives a nice coverage. It could work well on my face. I guess I'll ask sephora for a sample. Too bad it's so expensive ($42!)



iPHONE 4
Nuff said. So smexy.


FOREVER 21 STUD&PEARL EARINGS
I've wanted these since forever. But just too lazy to get em.


PILOT G-2 05 LEAD PENCILS
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THE UPDATE

"If you can't laugh at yourself, life's gonna seem a whole lot longer than you like."

Well, well, well... I haven't updated this blog in FOREVER. I guess I felt like "I'd do it later." Yeah procrastinator me. Anyways I feel like this blog will be like a diary... I can look back at it in the future and just laugh? Yeah I DON'T KNOW. DON'T JUDGE ME.


HERE WE GO MY LIFE IN THE PAST 3 MONTHS:

PROM 2010
Well, it really was the BOMB. Despite the setbacks and my pessimism, I say it was quite refreshing. I thought I'd be the awkward one because I wasn't part of the "wolfpack." (Yes, I call them that because they always travel in packs...like wolves!) But in turn, they all made me feel welcome. My date was... well he was my date. Just kidding, he really is too noble, to a point where I almost hate him for it. But in my mind, I think he wanted to go with someone else? (Again, me being a pessimist.) I don't really want to go through the 5 signs of awkwardness... Oh and afterwards we ate at BCD. LOL. Yes, food is all I ever think about. So here is a picture of what I ate for dinner at this fancy restraunt place:

GRADUATION / GRAD NIGHT
Well.. not much to be said? It is what it is. Grad Night was pretty bomb. When I got home from it, I was so sparkly, I put Edward Cullen to shame.

CANADA 2010
Unforgettable, FUN! It was cold when we got there, which was weird considering it was summer. Okay I admit, I was a BIT disappointed not seeing a person. But I guess it wasn't our time. It has been 10 years... doubt he even remembers me. *cough* JACKIE I know you're laughing inside. Anyways did you know that Canadians have microwaves in the food courts in case you are too cheap to buy the food there? HAHA FTW. here is some proof:
And they are so eco-friendly, they make you buy EVERYTHING. 25 cents for a plastic bag.. and A DOLLAR TO USE A SHOPPING CART REALLY? OOH and guess what I got? CURRY AND WASABI FLAVORED ICE CREAM. From the 200+ favors gelato place. FTW

Then I rode a ferry for the first time ever. And I went to Victoria's Secret Garden.. (It's not really called that, it's actually called Butchart Gardens..It's just more fun to say it how I say it) ANYWAYS. Lot's of pretty flowers like this one:


Summer 2010 has been okay I guess. Did not really do anything memorable, which is a waste. Hung out with a couple people / ate lots.


COLLEGE
Since I'm only taking 4/5 classes and each experience is different, so I'll break it down in those classes.

SOC 15: My first monday night class... LOLOL oh man. All girls, and like 6 and a half guys. I do not know anybody in that class..except oh wait for it... my ex best friend from elementary school! Why are we ex best friends you ask? Because I did something stupid and childish by help promote some hate club about her 6 years ago. And now karma has come back to bite me in the ass, but putting us in a sociology class ABOUT KIDS. I wonder what traumatic experience SHE will talk about. *sigh*

MATH 3A: First day, I did not know a soul. But I guess it doesn't matter because I know the material anyways. But second day was better because my friend petitioned into the class and I became more comfortable. Math will not be bad at all...because apparently I know way more than anybody else and I'm starting to meet new people. YAY.

WR 201: I know one person in that class. YAY improvement. Not much to say about that class yet, except I don't really think it'll be all that bad.

WR 280: I know the person who works at the front desk... Pretty chill office hours type of class. Will use that time to do my online music. LULZ

MUS 1: It's online ... not much to say except MUST NOT PROCRASTINATE.

Now that I think about it, I see a lot of familiar faces that are from my old high school.. and REALLY old faces from my elementary school friends... Is it creepy that I recognize them, but they don't recognize me? Who knows.



Last thoughts: YUP. that pretty much sums up everything from the past 3 months. I need a job :( No "deep thought" of the day. Too lazy to think really. I NEED TO START DOING HWK. GAH. Read more

AP STUDY TIME!

You see love at first is summer time
That's when you think that every thing's fine
No one ever thinks its gonna end
- Shayne Ward's song "Melt the Snow"

That song is so good. I've been playing it on repeat ever since I've been studying (:

Anyways so excuse my lack of updates for the next 2 weeks please as I will be busy studying my ass off. Or I'll stick a post in or two as a "study break" And now in addition to my test taking, there is another factor of the AP tests that really makes me nervous. :/ In fact, I don't know why I even am nervous for this. But :/ I guess the situation still makes me pretty anxious and jittery. *sigh*
SO MANY BOOKS HUH!? Let's play a game.. GUESS HOW MUCH THAT ALL COSTS -__- Read more

Shaved Ice (YUM!)

“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see,
but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”

So today I basically did NOTHING at school. YET AGAIN. AP week starts on monday :(
lets see the schedule in advance:
05/03/10: AP Poli Sci in the Morning
05/05/10: AP Calc AB in the Morning
05/10/10: HELL DAY. AP Music Theory in the Morning, then AP Physics in the afternoon. (I'm guessing I don't get to eat lunch...)

What AP am I most worried? I'd have to say Music Theory for reasons I cannot sing -___-. And perhaps physics for reasons that I suck at it. And for both of them to be on the same day causes me so much stress...

To much furtherado.. However today I did do something fun! I went to the GUPPY HOUSE with two of my friends (:! Had some shaved ice *drool* condensed milk is the best ever!
Here are the pictures!
YUM shaved ice as it came out!

:( not pretty anymore. NOMNOM time!

all gone :( hehe how did 3 girls manage to eat ALL of that? (we didn't! there was too much fruit so we had to take it in a cup!)

MM look at the yummy 85 cakes :o


So now I'm going to do something different. I'm going to do some type of random survey thing (: But I think I'll at least learn a little from it? LET'S GO! WOOOPAH!

Letters to ____

The Question: What have you been wanting to say to a person/people but haven’t found the time/will-power/ability to say yet?

The Idea: A reverse-anonymous question activity, but with a purpose; these letters can be anything, they might be rants of anger, pleas for apology, a simple “how are you” to a rarely seen friend but for some reason haven’t gotten to yet.

The Rules/Purpose: After writing, you may NOT let these writings simply gather dust. You took the time to write them, so think about it. Are some meant to be said? Are some meant to be thought over to consider yourself? A letter unread or at least thought over is just a waste of time.

The Hope: to help repairing/building/any-ing social connection just a little bit easier. Start Writing. Maybe there’s a letter somewhere out there meant for you.

Dear ______,

I would first like to start off by saying how much I admire you. You are my idol. I want to be like you, sometimes too much like you that I forget who I am. As a matter of fact, everybody loves you. But do you know how much anguish that you've caused me? I have to live up to high expectations that not only my parents put on me, but also I put on myself. I am my own worst critic and I beat myself over the worst of things. We all have flaws, we all fight for what we want. It is time that I fight for what I want and not how to beat you at the game of life. Okay fine, you win in this lifetime But just wait until the next one I will come back with so much more fire. And now all I want to be is happy. I know you don't try to be amazing, but can you tone it down a little so comparisons can stop being made. And when we are together it doesn't feel degrading. You have a great, innocent heart and no matter how many times you've shown to be humble, it is still a proven fact that you are so much more amazing that I am. And now it shames me to say now that I enjoy the fact that we can part ways now. I'm sorry.

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Welcome Back Linda!

“I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.” – Roy Croft

Hello. Long time no see huh? Let's see..
I wonder if I go through a whole month in a nutshell.

Spring Break:
It was pretty awesome I guess. I went to the beach with two of my close, best friends (:
ate some yummy food.

then the next day we had a fail disney movie marathon! Only because we watched TWO out of the SIX disney movies that I had planned. (Lion King and The Hunchback of Notre Dame) Then we ended up watching She's the Man and a korean drama named Hearty Paws (so sad so sad). SOME OF MY FRIENDS CAME LATE *sigh* ahah oh funness. The Good memories.


CONVENTION:
Well I would have to say that last year's convention was better, however this one did have its perks. (: I got freaking sunburned/tanned from staying out too much doing nothing. It is quite sad that these are the last few moments I am going to have with these people. And I must say, I will have a special place for them in my heart. As usual, we played games, sardines, mafia, assassin, zip bong, and they even had a games room! I made a compilation of clips from the whole day if I ever feel nostalgia. (IT'S ON FACEBOOK!)
And as usual, this is apparently the food blog of mine. AND so, with that being said this is what i ate:

And today? Well today I didn't do anything really. I SHOULD be studying for APS. Butttt... BLEHH. I'm going to watch Glee later regardless. AHAHA. (: I SHOULD have gone somewhere to eat today..buttttt things sometimes fail.
I don't feel like being philosophical today. So I won't. Time to go back on the blogging trainwagon Linda! These are memories to be remembered. Read more